[The Mothman]

Inspite of coming off as an upbeat person online, I am actually a very sad person.

My life is in shambles.
My former bestfriend has recently literally stabed me in the back. He called me a bad influance, and he is the one trying to get me to do pot, drink (more) and smoke. Most of my friends sided with him, leaving me with only a hand full of people I can turn to off line.

My family hate every thing I do. From video games, to my frogs, newts and various other odd pets, Warhammer, and movies. And the fact that they are all sports obbsessed, and I am not doesnt help either.

I have a virtually no existant social life, and all my social time is spent in a small room playing warhammer.

My love life is non-existant. I have had one girlfriend in my life (and I am 16) and I can hardly call her a girl, she is more rat them human.

I do well in school, but not in the 'important subject' math. My last report card was as thus: English: 95%, Drama 90%, History 98% and Math 60%. I am good at everything but math, but my father still proceded to gound me for 2 months (not like it did much) and banned me from playing video games and warhammer, even going as far as throwing away my 2000 pt old lizardmen army!

I dont know what to do, any advice would be nice.

[Gada Mazaha]

Always remain optimistic. It always looks bad when you're in it, but once the storm passes, you look back and think to yourself, Hey, that wasn't as bad as I made it out to be.

We all go through hard times in our life, but the hard times is what defines us. It makes us who we are.

The moment you lose hope, that is the moment all hope is lost. The moment all hope is lost, that is the moment you fail. The moment you fail, that's the moment you believe everything you think and say is true, and you are defeated.

Never lose hope.

[azr9]

hey it's okay i'm falling spanish and english!

as of girl friends and what not i only had one too so no hard feelings.
my parents hate almost everything i do too! the only thing they like is how i play [size=1pt]sports.[/size] your 'friend' situation though is bad. unfortunatly i am not one for giving advice. one they aren't really your friends any more, so stop talking to them/coming in contact with. you could tell on them childish as it may seem. they are underage.
i lost almost all my friends when i moved schools, i have only a few now due to some rumors that i'm gay and i suck at everything(like life). >
who cares if you spend all your time playing warhammer if you like it, it's fine no need to worry, but if you don't, go and try to meet other people at school or even here!
my parents even threw away my eldar army! [size=2pt]but i found it in the trash and snuck it back in. [/size]

hope this helps?

[Lomendil]

**** what the other people in your life think. If they are so dismissive and pointlessly harsh, what use are their views to you? I'd say grit your teeth and bear it for a few years, knuckle under until you can go to college/get a job. You'll find more like-minded people once you're involved in your chosen field, and your family will have to take you on your terms once you're independent.

So just work towards that, while leaving some time to do the things you can still enjoy. If your friends ditched you so quickly and easily, they weren't worthy friends in the first place (unless you really are a bad influence. Maybe you could elaborate on this part) and you are better off without them.

[Mrgame]

Screw your friends and your family.If they can't accept you I would forget about them.Dont worry I suck at math and really I take it as the 2nd important subject as you need to read to do math and since you can't have a teacher to sit by you and help you or telling you what to do and all you have is a book with instuctions.

Your parents should not have reacted that way and I would be very pissed to have thrown out a very exspensive hobby,hell if it makes you happy throw out something of theres.

Move on with life and take no notice to others as most are idiots in the world and are ignorant of others likeings. Goodluck.

[Bash]

Originally Posted by The Mothman

I do well in school, but not in the 'important subject' math. My last report card was as thus: English: 95%, Drama 90%, History 98% and Math 60%.

What...WHAT...outdoing BASH in both History (97%) and English (well, English Literature 93%) for my Year 12 results...that's an outrage.

Funnily enough, I wasn't always the random and crazy ninjascopic adventurer I am now- I used to be shorter and not have a beard when I was younger. I also cared what people think until I stopped resisting the fact that I'm an amoral sociopath that doesn't care about anyone who doesn't benefit him.

Seriously, you need to not worry what other people think about you...like...at all. If they're not your friends or your family and they don't make you happy, ignore/avoid/destroy/manipulate them as the situation warrants. Life is like a game and, as such, it is your duty to rock.

Do you read a book and see only every page as the whole story...or do you focus on the end or what you've already read? Some like to think of these things separately...or one of them alone. I think of life as one book that has bad bits, boring bits, naughty bits, funny bits and all sorts of things that are, on their own, there purely to elevate the total level of experience. Life's harder and lonelier times exist to harden your resolve and if you approach things like they are problems (and thus can be solved on some level) then you will grow strong and wise. You're not a child anymore...the world isn't an easy place and things just aren't given to you for nothing. You've got to compete, use, abuse, take and destroy to survive...and anyone that doesn't help you in this or make your life better is a threat to your success.

Take my little sister Amanda...I've spent the last week keeping the most beloved and special person in my entire world from turning to drugs, slitting her wrists or developing deep-set psychological problems and I have done it purely as if it were a problem. That doesn't mean my love was any less passionate, my comforting any less warm...it just meant I approached it like a fireman sees a burning building with people he has to rescue inside. A problem, nothing more or less. A warrior approaches a battle like it was cooking dinner. Never lose hope, never despair, never think you can't make a change or a difference or, at the least stop things getting worse.

When I want to have an emo fit and say everything's pointless and too hard, I think of my great-grandfather and how he stood during the Great War with all his men around him and helplessly watched as he was left to send four waves of them to their death...and took part in the last one himself, charging barely 3 steps before a machine gun hit him in the face and blew his jaw off. A warrior true and brave, he didn't lay down and die but held his shattered face together and had it tied up with old chicken wire. He then forged his own medical documents to fight again in France before this great and heroic man, a giant 6'6" burly monster, died an agonising death as his lungs ruptured from poison gas and his throat collapsed in on itself in some far-off mudpool...never to see his children grow up. All for nothing, it would seem to some fools...but not to me. Whenever I think it's hopeless, it's pointless, it's too hard or too scary to face another day...I think of such men and I could look them in the face when I go to die and say those words. How could I honestly say that anything at all is too painful to bear...too costly, too tiring, too hard...when such men died for me to be in those situations. I am not some damn hero...and I'm not a mighty warrior or a legendary fighter, I'm just an ordinary bloody bouncer at a night club...who plays Warhammer and gets high on sugar...but I love my sisters more than anything...and I know that if I had to, I would go and die for them whatever trials I had to overcome or burdens I had to bear and if all I was promised was a gruesome death in some forgotten battlefield, I know I would do so if only that they could see how much they mean to me...

Bah...it's not only emo kids that cry, you know. Sometimes I cry, like now, because my sisters are so far away and in another world...and I want to feel them in my arms and hold them tightly. But you know what? Everyday brings that closer. Every painful step I take walking 6 miles home after working all night, every insult I ignore, every random stupid post on here, every night I spend laughing with them...everything I do brings me closer to my new life with them in Canada.

But that's a bit about Bash...hahaha...as all of us should reall speak of our lives from time to time :P

So when you just are quick to think of me only as a jumpy and random internet lunatic (not altogether inaccurate an assumption), the greatest depths beneath still waters lie...

And Mothman, we all have our trials and our hardships to endure. Why? Because life isn't easy. It's not a nice place. The only reason you're ever happy is because you've made something wonderful out of it which you can do...and once you have someone to love within your hands and something amazing to hold and breathe in and indeed LIVE like I do (even if still now just in narrow expectation), then all these times will mean nothing. They are the opening of a can compared to the drinking of the sugarry goodness within. These days and all you do now, be it hard or otherwise, will mean little when you find your true happiness...whatever form that takes.

That goes for all of you...and even me, because while I'm undeniably hardcore and awesome in many ways, there's still more time left to be exactly that and ways to be even better...like writing that bloody Fist of Bash tactica article...hmmmm...

[Wargamer]

I'd consider a lawsuit against your father for one...seriously, sue the ****er.

[Kangaroo Joe]

60% is good. I'd kill to get 60% on most of my exams both past and present.

[The Mothman]

Originally Posted by Wargamer

I'd consider a lawsuit against your father for one...seriously, sue the ****er.

He's a lawyer. I would lose, and get kicked out (as I have no job at the moment, or anywhere else to go) that could be a bit of a problem.

But, 60 is the lowest I have ever had in Grade 10.
Science - 82
Latin - 99
Business 100
Computers 90
and you know the rest.

And yeah, my former friend stabed me in the back with a metal fork. I'm pretty sure I broke his nose though.
Ah It is good to see that I have some people to turn to (even if the majority of them live in a land far, far away)

[Wargamer]

Originally Posted by The Mothman

He's a lawyer. I would lose, and get kicked out (as I have no job at the moment, or anywhere else to go) that could be a bit of a problem.

Maybe... but then as he's a lawyer, you can accuse him of manipulating the system in his favour. Frankly, throwing your stuff away (which he neither likes nor understands) because you didn't do one subject to A+ standards sounds like child abuse to me.

If you want success, write down somewhere how you're feeling sad, lonely and depressed... do it several times. Blame him. <edited and stuff>

Dude, you know as well as I do that that wasn't an appropriate suggestion. We owe it to our members to give them sound, helpful advice. Advocating suicide is not, in my book, sound, helpful advice. There is always a better alternative, and you should know better then any other member here that suicide is never the answer. Please don't do it again, cuz I really don't want any conflict in my life right now, OK? Oh, and watch the language, also.